Have you ever felt so alone in the world, like no one cares about you? It seems that you have only yourself to rely on and that you have to fix all your problems on your own, but then something changes. You look around and then you realize that there is someone who cares for you. In fact, this person cares so much for you that they know you better than you know yourself. Sometimes realizing that there is someone who cares can be scary, but it can also be a blessing. I know that I am the kind of person who feels I need to take care of myself and figure out things on my own, but that’s not reality. Each and every person is not designed to be self reliant in all aspects of their life. There are some aspects that we need help with and it may be hard to admit it, but we can’t recover without help from others.
After years of trying to recover from this Eating Disorder, I finally realized that I can’t do it on my own. It took a lot of courage to admit to it, but once I finally found people I could trust, with all my being, I saw a huge difference. I am a very intuative person, so it took a while for me to finally find a team that I could trust with my deepest self. I am still working on giving myself permission to allow people to support and help me, but now that I’ve admitted I needed help, everything has changed. I am so lucky to have a PCP, who literally saved my life, and who continues to encourage and inspire me, and a therapist who genuiely cares about me and my recovery. I am also lucky to have a life coach, who continues to motivate me everyday and a friend, who is a professional, who continues to belive in me with all her heart. Without all these women I don’t think I would be where I am in my recovery. I know I am the main denominator between all these women, but without them my life would have definitely taken a different direction.
Not to say that every day is rainbows and sunshine, but I am definitely in a better place than I was this time last year. I am stronger and I am more motivated than ever to recover. It has now been 1 1/2 years since I have been in an inpatient or residential facility and I have never been able to say that. I can honestly say that I am on my way to recovery and to achieving my extraordinary life. I will always owe my progress to these AMAZING women who helped inspire me to stay on my path to recovery.